IT FEELS LIKE TODAY ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- life as an alive person "i hate being an adult." that's what i just said in reference to being a taxable person. in other news, however, i am a happy girl. and i actually have some time to sit down and write about it. hi! i think my 21st and 22nd years of living have been about coming more completely alive. or maybe this has been happening since i've been born but i'm only just now noticing it. it is fun to notice it, because i can shout, "i'm alive!!" i'm alive, everybody. life as an alive person is going through the day and feeling it all--the fatigue, the joy, the sorrow, the fear, the peace. it'll all be there. life as an alive person is forgetting about myself, almost forgetting that i exist. it is standing, staring, dumbfounded, in the wonder of another, of the complexity of the human personality. it is crying over suffering. it is loneliness. it is togetherness and community. it is grief. it is rejoicing. it is absence and presence. i know God. i know my Maker. i know that His promises are always good. what He wills will always come to pass. i wait in His presence, i move in His movement. i am calm. i am thrilled. i can't wait. i just don't want to have to do my taxes. 8:16 pm - 03.14.2006 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- there's music playing: "out of the woods" by nickel creek i'm reading: THE MARK OF A CHRISTIAN by francis schaeffer |
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